Feeling a little lost ..

Dearest Phoebe,
Mummy decided to pen this down in your blog whilst the incident is still fresh in my mind. You were rather cranky last evening (yes, again), probably because you were dragged out from your late slumber. In your crankiness, you started using your legs to kick mummy and even used your fist to hit mummy's back. This was the first time and I hope the last that you would do this. You are rarely rude to mummy, so your actions yesterday kind of threw us off our feet. You know how mummy felt? Mummy was not angry but lost, very lost. These are acts of innocence but in ten or fifteen years down the road, if you were to do that again, it would be a testament of how our way parenting has failed. As Daddy mentioned in the earlier entries, parenting is really a tough job. I recalled one night while you were sleeping and Daddy and I chatted about the 'right' way in bringing you up. Lots of love is the methodology that we would prescribe to. However, an overt expression of love would probably lead to undesirable consequences. So again, the question of how to manage you, the little one, without bruising you emotionally. Daddy had to punish you but ended off with lots of hugs for you. The evening ended well, nonetheless, as you crawled your tired self to mummy's lap again with lots of cuddles. Lots of love, from mummy.